Beau Lamarre-Condon has denied being “obsessed” with Jesse Baird and stalking him, but admitted to following him online after their break up, a court has heard.

The former police officer is accused of fatally shooting Baird and his new partner, Luke Davies, with his police service weapon in Baird’s Paddington home in Sydney on 19 February 2024.

He has pleaded not guilty to two counts of murder and one charge of aggravated break and enter.

Sitting in the witness box for the fourth day, Lamarre-Condon was shown screenshots he had taken of Baird’s Instagram story after their break up in April 2023.

During his cross-examination on Tuesday, crown prosecutor Brett Hatfield SC asked the former officer: “Were you stalking Jesse online and in-person in this period in May and June 2023?”

Lamarre-Condon responded: “Mr Crown, if you’re going to accuse me of stalking you’re going to have to show my phone records of where I was on these dates”.

“I definitely wasn’t stalking him, I was looking online,” he told the NSW supreme court.

Lamarre-Condon repeatedly said he was the one who initiated the split, and told the jury this first break up with Baird was “amicable”.

“We always followed each other,” he told the court.

“That’s not stalking. Am I looking at what he posts? Am I a follower? Yes.”

But the court heard he was still upset about the break up.

“Jesse and I had good times together,” he said.

“I did miss that and I miss him as a friend as well, not just as a sexual partner.”

Earlier, the former officer told the jury about the early days of their relationship, saying he met up with Baird in October and November 2022 for sexual encounters before the pair began going on romantic dates in December of that year.

Hatfield asked Lamarre-Condon: “You were obsessed with him right from the start?”

Lamarre-Condon denied this, telling the jury: “I never cared about showing Jesse off. I wanted Jesse to meet my friends because I thought he was genuine.

“Jesse Baird could have been a garbage cleaner … I liked Jesse for who he was as a person.”

Hatfield then asked if Lamarre-Condon was “obsessed” with Baird in February and March 2023, the accused responded: “I don’t agree with ‘obsessed’. Smitten? Yes. Obsessed? No.”

Hatfield pointed to messages between Lamarre-Condon and his friends sent around the time the pair began going on dates, where the officer says: “it sounds crazy, I love him.”

Lamarre-Condon responded: “I say ‘I love you’ to all my friends and to people like that all the time.

“That’s different to saying I’m ‘in’ love with him,” he said.

Asked whether he was insecure about the relationship and whether Baird liked him, Lamarre-Condon said his response was “natural” and sometimes occurred when the TV presenter did not reply to his messages straight away.

“I would always joke [with my friends], ‘we’re white girl crazy’,” Lamarre-Condon told the jury.

“It means we should stop being in our head and second-guessing ourselves.”

He told the court he would make jokes and have “banter” with his female friends, not his heterosexual male friends, telling each other things like: “You’re a crazy bitch.”

Lamarre-Condon told the court he had looked through Baird’s phone, using it to unfollow people, when the pair went on a brief holiday to a cabin in regional NSW.

“In relation to breaching his privacy and, yes, his trust, I did unfollow two to three people,” he said.

“I believe curiosity just got the best of me.

“Our relationship was progressing, I just kind of wanted to see where he was at … if he was also messaging other guys romantically … I’m not making excuses for my behaviour.”

Later, when the prosecution attempted to go through messages between Lamarre-Condon and one of his friends, the officer directly addressed Hatfield, telling him: “Mr Crown, I think you’re trying to mislead me here.”

Justice Natalie Adams interjected, telling Lamarre-Condon to “just answer the question”.

“If the crown is misleading you, [the defence lawyer] will object,” she said.

The trial continues.